What The Heck Am I Doing Here?

Assalamualaikum w.b.t. Apa khabar peeps? Oh, aku ada kawan nama Pips, sebab nama dia Hafifudin and nak panggil dia Din, mcm seribu orang dah guna nama Din kat kampus tu, so I'd decided utk panggil dia Pips. Catchy kan. Back to the point, aku mmg suka2 hati je muncul-hilang, muncul-hilang dgn korang kan. Sorry *mcm biasa, Busy busy busy. No like seriously, aku ni mmg jenis camni, dulu time first three weeks mmg aku tak rasa langsung kesibukkan sebagai seorang student tu, tapi bila start join satu program, pergh! dgn meetings, dgn follow up gerak kerja, mana nak balance kan dgn classes and lectures and assignments and exercises and tasks and notes and still human enough to socialize dgn member2 semua, makan, and ada skit masa utk diri sendiri dan yg tersayang. #erk.

It is challenging still, tapi nak buat camne kan, dah kata pun student, degree student plak, dlm well-known Uni plak, yg selalu org pandang kemain melangit *seriously guys, experience it first hand dulu, baru compare ok. *wink. Bottom line is that, ada satu masa tu, time tengah mencuba sedaya upaya utk multi-tasking antara facebooking-check handphone dgr lagu and blogging (tipu! kau mana blogwalking past few weeks Anas oi), so aku pun terfikir yang, before last Sep (sebelum masuk UKM) I was so so so free kat rumah, duduk goyang kaki, besarkan badan, besarkan perut, besarkan kepala, takde buat apa, tido lambat, bangun lambat, and out of a sudden, dah bergelar student, and have to do every single thing that a student hate to do. 

Kena bangun pagi, pergi kelas, tunggu bas if necessary, menapak ke dewan kuliah, dengar kuliah ikut mood dan lecturer, kalau boring, then it'll be one heck of lecture, kalau ok tu oklah. Then, balik kena buat assignments, tasks, exercises, itu belum kira kalau join program kolej. Tiap malam ada meeting, kena settlekan kerja sebelum program, kena commit dgn program, mana plak nak curi2 masa utk bersosial dgn kawan2, dan masa utk diri sendiri. *copypaste perenggan pertama. But who am I to complain.

Dulu pernah terbaca satu status member cakap, students yg duk merengek dkt fb saying life as a student is hard. Well, if u ask me, I'll say, F U. Yes, F U. The real reply my fried did was : 'Kalau kau tak tahan penatnya berusaha, kau takkan dapat rasakan manisya berjaya.' ditambah lagi dengan, 'Ramai lagi kat luar sana yang nak sambung belajar, kau jangan asyik nak mengeluh penat je, kata pun menuntut ilmu, nothing is easy. No pain no gain.'

Kau dah diberi peluang dapat sambung study which everyone is craving and would die to be a student. *lagi2 yg sudah bekerjaya, lagilah tension with work, dan nak sangat balik2 jadi pelajar. Plus, kau sedang belajar, one of the biggest jihad on Allah's path. Menuntut ilmu itu suatu tuntutan dan suatu ibadah. You shouldn't be complaining. Kenapa nak mengeluh? It's a learning process, from good to a better person and from that point on, be the best of urself. 

My point is that, as a student, you should be greatly grateful sbb dpt terus menuntut ilmu. Menuntut ilmu dari buaian hingga ke liang lahad. We were taught of that since we were little kids. 

My case was, last week I was so occupied with a program yg aku join months back. It was the Cindian Festival *kat Instagram aku ada update. Then kalau kau dah start ber-program, haruslah kau akan terikat dengan meetings, and tonnes of works to be done, aaaand of course kau akan kelam kabut nak bahagikan masa utk *baca perenggan pertama (simptom malas dah melanda) so akulah antara student2 yg mengeluh aku cakap tadi tu. But then I realized, aku tak sepatutnya mengeluh. 

Itu semua ujian, nak tengok aku ni pandai ke tak bahagikan masa. Plus aku teringat lagu Raihan, Demi Masa, especially part Lapang sebelum Sempit. I remembered before I entered UKM, hidup aku tersangat2lah lapang, nak buat apa2, bila2 masa pun on je, but then, bila aku masuk UKM, and baru join 1, ulang suara, baru join 1 program, hidup dah kucar kacir. There you have it, my weakness at managing time. 

Tho, the program went well, dan Alhamdulillah, study tu masih balance. The reason I put this up? Sbb aku tertanya pada diri sendiri, kalau org lain yg dah berjaya sebelum ni boleh buat 4-5 major programs per semester, and end up graduating with first class degree, kenapa aku takleh kan? *eceyh...

But still doe...bila aku bangun terlalu awal hanya utk ke kelas I'll end up asking myself, The heck am I doing here? LOL.

p/s: program Cindian Festival ialah satu pertandingan tarian kaum Cina dan India, dan kolej aku menjadi tuan rumah a.k.a penganjur, so aku salah seorang ajk. It went on surprisingly successful, haha. U guys can follow every bit of my study life dkt IG je, sbb aku mmg sgt-sgt-sgt-sgt jarang update blog sekarang ni. *mianhae. 

p/s2: I still love every bit of u guys yg still sudi masuk n baca, walaupun aku ni kemain busy kalah menteri xnak pergi blogwalk kat blog korang. Uhuk2.